We probably have a mouse or mice in our attic, I saw some mice sh*t when I was trying to find xmas stuff. That's what happens when there's no cat in the house anymore. We had mice there last time before we had the cat. But that's ok, I like mice, I think they're cute. If I catch one I'll keep it as a pet. It would be very cruel though.... Hmmh. But who told to take over my attic?!

Haha. The new album of Eminem is very entertaining. Not so high quality than the previous albums but entertaining it is, ohhh yes. My favorite track's Puke..hehe... gotta be. Or then I'm just tired.

I'm wondering how many good albums a good artist can make before she/he's not good anymore? I think the problem with Eminem is that he has already told everything about his life that is worth telling. Now the listeners think in their minds like a man (who got married 20 years ago) thinks about his wife's thoughts: "HEARRRRD IT!". Maybe artists whose songs don't tell about their own lives (only or mostly) can succeed longer. So many good and talented artists start from the rock bottom and whine about their lives and when they've finally got famous and everything is cool.... then they have nothing left to say. They just hang out and do crappy songs 'cause that's all they can do.

But maybe that's just the way it is. Maybe that's the meaning of art for some people: throw the pain away and then do something else.

My virus program catched the fourth virus (3 trojans and 1 worm) on my system this autumn. The computer is more sick than I've ever been. Maybe that's good but I'm starting to get pissed off. Happily the last one the program catched was only in an e-mail that I would've recognized by myself too. So it wasn't actually very dangerous and hadn't chance to act. It's my fault too... that I use such programs like Outl00k Express and IE.... But still. I've done nothing wrong! Why do you attack me!?1+1+1 Go and get some evil people's computers like George Bush's and animal torturers'. Or something useful. I'm just a loser.

Another things that sucks besides viruses is being b-u-s-y. And stress that comes with that. I'm really awful when I'm busy. I hate ~everybody and ~everything.

The only thing that can 'cause me stress is "things to do". Usually those things are school works but sometimes they can be really small things like cleaning or buying something ("shampoo is almost finished, i gotta buy a new one, damnnnn"). And now, because I know that these little - and a bit bigger - things make feeling busy and stressed, I try to avoid them. When I notice that I'm getting one more thing to do I get annoyed. And now: I just try to reach the only nice situation - have an empty "to do list". But because it's almost impossible to have "an empty list" I just get stressed more easily.

So, when people usually get stressed when they have this kind of "list":

• take the trash out
  
• clean the house
  
• work project 1
  
• work project 2
  
• eat at least one healthy meal/day
  
• didn't do the projects
  -> get a new job
  
• buy a stamp
  
• call someone
  
• get the kids from school
  
• color your hair
  
• paint the kitchen
  
• sign the divorce papers
• etc
  
• etc
  

I get stressed with a list like this:

• eat an apple
  
• listen to the teacher
  
• sit in a train
  
• paint my finger nails
  
• check the web page teacher said to see as homework
• send an e-mail to a friend

I don't know when this started but I should probably go and see the doctor.

Buses and harbors are on strike..have been over a week now. Next ones are probably trains and airplanes. I wouldn't mind trains going on strike..if they just could wait 2 more weeks when I should go to back to school. Then I shouldn't go there. I couldn't. And it would be just fine. Indeed.

A free tip: never sleep between 6pm and 9pm. I still don't feel awake I just got a headache. Maybe it's just me.

There was a document about Internet suicides on the tv a few days ago. It was a little interesting and they introduced some sites and one case I had already heard about. It was about this guy who made a suicide on the 12th of January in 2003 during his "friends" at IRC were watching the whole episode log - http://www.brandonvedas.com/ripperlog.txt.

Like all the other tv programs this one came to Finland pretty late. His "homepage" is ok but nice idea to accuse people on their computer of this suicide. I would probably finish the use of the Internet if you could be judged for "not stopping someone killing him/herself when you see or hear about it while surfing".

*Yawn* Interesting things around today.

- sh00ting animals through the Internet
(yesterday actually)
- it was cold and S-N-O-W-I-N-G!!!

Wheeee. I should do an Internet book store comparison for homework. I've never bought anything from an Internet store, book or anything else. I've just noticed that all of them are very messy and hard to browse. Too much stuff on the first page. Uggggh. I chose Amaz0n, Barnes&N0ble, Countryb00kshop and B00ks-a-million. I hope I won't buy anything from them when I do the work.

Went to an Italian restaurant today. It was all about pasta. I can't say if I liked the food or not. It's just....pasta! Not good or bad. I would've made better food myself. There are only few restaurants that have _good_ vegeterian choices on their list in Lahti. What a shame. The salad was the best part of my visit.

Now it's winter. Huge snowflakes. Cool. They say that next week it's raining again though. Huh. I wouldn't write so much about weather if it really wouldn't affect my mood so much. But it does.

It seems like this one guy - a bum - lives in our rainstation. He's there eeeevery morning and now he's started disturbing me. About week ago he tried to sell me this nice cassette on the platform: "buy a cassette for two?!". The first thing that came to my mind was "what, for two? who two? me and you? ohh so sweet! .... not..." but I just said "Ohhhh I really don't have any money"... which was almost true. Yesterday I had to go through the station to the platform and he was standing next to the door. So my strategy was to open the door as quick as possible and just go. Fast, fast, fast. And it worked. This morning he was there again and I was standing in the lobby of the station and tried to send SMS to my school friend. Then he suddenly appeared there AGAIN. He came closer and closer... and I FAST walked away. Fast, fast, fast. Sometimes he just asks money and one time he tried to sell this nice (really beautiful I assume, school mate said it looked like it would've picked from a street) cap to my school friend. I'm just waiting for what he's selling next. Old chewing gum?

Mmmm. I just can't get my headphones working here. At school. Maybe it's because I actually should answer the question "Vem var en berömd vislyriker?" Vislyriker?! Jag vet inte! Who could know. Heh. A fast look over my class mates' screens I can see that I'm not the only one doing something else than studying probably one of the most useless languages in the world (No offense, Swedes. And sorry teacher if you're watching this with your "bigbrother program".) And hey, all the other students are like 30-40 years old so teens aren't the only group with concentrating problems. I'm not a teen. I'm just writing about _them_.

Glad I'm a girl, I can do two things at the same time (sure). So I'm learning Swedish literature history and writing this.

I'm sooo waiting for the Eminem's new album. What subjects he has picked now? Or maybe it's not like writing to a newspaper. Can't just "pick up" the subjects and you're life. Wondering if it'll be the last album from him. Dunno. The first track that has been playing in a radio doesn't tell very much of it 'cause it's ...not so sophisticated.. ehehe. Like they ever were. But anyway.

Huhhh. It's pretty hard to get to write in this blog at this time. I read other people's entries at Diaryland and noticed that pretty many of them had written about election results. Not a surprise for me. Guess who's back, guess who's back, guess who's back. Bush. Hmmmph. I'm worried about the world and sh*t. Yea. I'm saying sh*t. The world is full of sh*tty people and one of the worst is leading one of the biggest countries in the world. Again. Sh*t. *yawn* Going to sleep. That's all I can do about it.