I don't like butterfly collectors. What kind of a monster wants to kill such beautiful creatures as butterflies? Those people gotta be pure evil.

I watched one fly today on my screen at work. It looked like our cat used to look when she washed her face. Like all cats do. You know. That fly had some catish habits.

I had to borrow a few books about Islam because I can't understand things at all anymore. Two weeks ago I still had a little faith in people but now I've got nothing.

Things went like this:
1.) Danish newspaper publishes an offending cartoon of Muhammed
2.) Islamic people get mad
3.) Some of Danish people tell they are sorry and some of them don't
4.) Still mad, Islamic people say that the freedom of speech shouldn't mean that you can say mean things of other people's religion ---> burning embassys
5.) Still mad, say that they are going to grow their kids fighting for Allah (or something like that)
6.) Still mad, someone gets and idea that all Islamic people should kill Danish people anywhere in the world
7.) "We are sorry for publishing the cartoon" "No we're not" "Yes, we are" "No we aren't"
8.) "Are they really sorry?!?!?" Still mad. We don't need no water, let the...

Huhhh. How much damage can you do with a pen?! If I say that you are stupid you come and kill all Finns or all people who have something in common with me? Same colored socks? Or is it enough if they have same colored hair?

Neither I understand why newspapers had to publish that cartoon, I bet that if there would've been an unflattering cartoon of (Christians') Jesus (or something) somewhere, they would've been angry too. Or is it that it's ok to draw cartoons of politicians because they are just individuals and can't defend themselves but not of gods or Muhammed because you will get slaughtered? Humor is dangerous when making fun of anyone and laughing should be banned? Draw just flowers!! They are b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l!

One person drew that cartoon and offended people are mad at everybody. Sounds like a really bad excuse to make trouble but for some Islamic people it's like all european people would've attacked them. Hey cmon. Most Scandinavian people are probably like Finns, not interested in religions that much and not deciding what newspapers publish or not.

And according to Koran, any religion should be good? Right? But then not?! I can't follow.

I wrote all these words and they make no sense because my thoughts aren't in order in my head at the moment.

I'm agnostic but I'm afraid that soon I'll be an atheist. I wouldn't mind having anything to do with a God (or gods) who's as sick as the one who created humans even though if that God now appeared here, sitting on my desk.

Did you know that chimpanzees' DNA is closer to human's DNA than other apes? I'm surprised. When I watch a document on the tv, chimpanzees take care of each other.

It was the first day at work today. At first I felt I had forgot everything though I've been working in that same place several times before (local branch library). But I hadn't forgotten very many things and I even learned new things. I'm very bad what it comes to handling money. I'm not a money person. But I'm getting better. I was a little nervous mostly because now I got this educational background and I actually should be able to do everything. It's not like before.

Then I got my results from the university. Yea. I didn't get in. What a surprise. Not. But I'm not disappointed. I'm glad. I did pretty good in that entrance exam (39/60) considering that I didn't even read the whole book through.

What else. I've been following news as often as possible. Stupid hurricane near Yucatán, Mexico. I wish that a net friend of mine is ok. It's interesting that sometimes I'm able to forget the whole world and all uncomfortable things going on. Then sometimes awareness climbs up on ..much..higher level. Starting to believe that I really live on a planet Earth with 6 billion other people. And that bananas doesn't grow in supermarkets. And many much more important things that I'm not going to list here. Because if you understand a word I'm writing here you know what I mean. If not, forget it.

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Oh I forgot to mention that I'm really laughing my ass off when I read about Finnish "myrskybongarit" (people who follow "thunders" in Finland). Kinda sad.

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

How wrong can these so called "tests" be? Heh. I'm not warm, I'm not loving and I don't know what to do with children (I rarely have to think about that but when that happens). People always misbehave around me.

10:52 pm
All the newspapers (in Finland) have written about what Mr Chirac said about Finnish food. Or about British food. That only Finnish food is worse than British food. My humble opinion about that: SO true! I don't know are all his opinions good but that one is. I don't eat Finnish food so much. Except Finnish vegetables, naturally. And the reason is that traditional Finnish dishes are really weird.

I still haven't succeeded to get into Michael Jackson's official homepage. Not a surprise after this:

It's so hard to guess what's inside of Jackson's head. As he says in Stranger in Moscow: "Here abandoned in my fame. Armageddon of the brain." His music is awesome anyway.

This morning I opened the newspaper: "Pakistan's nuclear weapon is completely safe" was the biggest headline. Safe nuclear weapon?! WTF? Oh yea of course it is, we all know how nuclear weapons are built: to be safe! Sure.

Then I went out: "oh how lovely day, sun is shining, maybe I could wear a dress". "Oh how nice, it's cloudy again, good bye summer clothes".

What a great day.